All in a year

It has been a while since I last wrote on my blog and since then many things have happened some good and some not so good, the last time I wrote I have just started a job as a Library assistant at Stellenbosch University on the 01 September 2010, since then life has been going on as normal with no forward movement really, it seems more a case of 1 foot forward and 2 feet back.

When I left UCT in 2010 I had high hopes of renovating my house and living peacefully doing the work God has called me to do. I started renovation on my house and to this day I am still renovating my house as the people I got to do the job did such a bad job that I am still renovating actually fixing their bad workmanship, every month every sent I have left over from my salary goes into fixing up the bad building work, even people that I consider trustworthy has stabbed me in the back with their empty promises and bad workmanship. After the taxman got hold of my pension payout I lost almost R42000 in taxes, money which I had intended to pay off all my debts and thus be debt free, unfortunately this was not the case and things were tough for me from then onwards and I came within a whisker of losing my house, the house that I want my sister to take over for her, my 2 nieces, my mom to live in without my nieces having to grow up like I did. (Currently my Godson also lives in the house) As I will be answering Gods calling on my life I don't know where I will live, maybe out there is a female with the same paradigms, and we will make a new start somewhere in Africa together, who knows what God has in store.

I went to Tanzania and even whiles I was there I received phone calls regarding outstanding debt. When I came back from Tanzania God made 1 thing clear to me, I was to be His servant, and be ready to follow Him. 7 months after my return from Tanzania I started working at Stellenbosch University. This I hoped would be the start I was hoping for to a new beginning, work in Stellenbosch is ok and I manage to find a sleeping corner in someone’s house on a farm in Stellenbosch , this off course is not ideal as quite a bit of my personal possessions have gone missing from the house I was however warned by the house owner that her grandson has got sticky fingers and also there is no privacy in the house but with my current situation it is better than nothing as people charge an arm and a leg for accommodation in and around Stellenbosch. Had I not been offered this accommodation I would have had to wake up at 04h30 am everyday and arrive back home at 19h30 pm in the evenings.  This is what happens when I leave for work on a Monday and arrive back home on a Friday evening for the weekend, there has been Fridays where I arrived home after 21h00 pm because of train delays.

 Shortly after starting working I got a loan to help pay my debts as I really wanted to rid myself of debt which included arrears on my house and other other accounts, I managed to get my accounts up to date only to fall for my 1 weakness which is to help my family, I manage to get a loan from Old Mutual and some of the money was spend on the house and some other debt.

Right now, I am not managing to meet my obligations to pay all my debt, 1 reason being I have taken out a life policy with 1life direct and with Old Mutual, this only amounts to R500 a month, but it is exceeding my monthly income by just under that amount every month. On top off this I am unable to meet my credit card debt to Standard Bank and this is a concern for me as I have not been able to meet my debt obligation for the last 90 days. I always have good intentions when I plan something, but it seems my weakness is the proper executions of my intentions.

It is my desire to follow Gods will for my life and if it means being single and lonely so be it, right now that is very hard for me as I meet women all the time and unfortunately it is always on some chat site etc and we get on great but when it comes to meeting there is always something preventing the meeting from taking place. I have just decided that if we should meet, we will if not then so be it, if you the person God has in store for me as my wife then such a meeting will take place, I have always said to myself that when I meet such a woman, I will know that she is the 1 for me

Please remember me in you prays as I look to do Gods will, pray that I will listen to God as He guides and leads me through this difficult time.

'Not I but Christ'